Today, I woke up to a wintery, overcast, blustery morning. I wanted to stay in bed. Warm. Cozy. Mmmmmhhh.... more sleeeeeeeeeppppp.
Instead on an impulse I threw off the bedcovers and rushed to catch the early morning dog walking crew. Only Mac was there when I arrived (he's part of the early, early morning walkers). On his way out he caught me with a warning, "tread carefully. The icy path is even more slippery with the freshly fallen snow."
Grateful for the ice picks on my boots, Cole and I started our walk.
About 30 minutes in to our walk, I reached the top of a small incline which I usually run down.
I stopped briefly and looked down at the path. I felt the flash. The momentary knowing. A whirl of layered information instantly flooding my being.
Then I did it.
I really did it.
I did myself in.
(Are you wondered what?)
I brushed my nigglies ASIDE. My deepest truth. My inner compass. My built-in guidance system.
Dismissed it ALL.
I IGNORE my intuition.
Bet YOU KNOW what's coming next.
Stepping forward, I flew through the air, my body hurtled down towards the large frozen puddle. My right side pierced the ice. Cold icy water began to soak my skin. My knee throbbed.
I almost threw up. The shock I suppose. I needed to get up. Placing my hands on the ice I tried to push myself up only to crash through ice again. Fingertips to armpits, toes to crotch. Wet. Cold. Jarring.
I took a big breath and pulled myself up and out of the water. My focus turned to the sensations in my body. Opening my heart, I allowed them to flow through me while I continued to pay attention to my breath.
Realizing I was ok, I asked for my next steps. I needed dry warm clothes, I called Cole back. The walk was over.
As I walked back out, my mind started to toy with me. "Keep walking." "It wouldn't be so bad." "You can do it." Looking at my bare exposed hands carrying heavily soaked mittens, reality set in.
My mind tried again, egging me on. "Well, maybe the walk is done but perhaps you can still do the errands you planned (accompanied by Cole) after the walk, hhmmm, hmmmm?"
POP. I took a small imaginary pin and burst these big illusion balloons my personal thinking was trying to float by me.
I walked directly back to my car, my skin stinging and burning.
I drove straight home, stripped out of my waterlogged clothes and ran a hot bath.
Always, ALWAYS. Always PAY ATTENTION to your nigglies.
The quiet whispers in your ear.
The movie or scenes which play out before your mind's eye.
The feelings or sensations you experience deep in your body.
The instant knowing of information which fills your awareness.
Pay attention to red flags. You've experienced them before. They are here to serve you.
Let personal thinking float on by.
Let the deepest truth of your awareness guide you.