I've struggled with anxiety and control for decades. Free floating fear. The need to know every detail. Exhausting.
I bought into the story (BIG TIME) that somehow spending time worrying or fussing over every detail would make everything easier. Better. That investing my energy and time in this way was appropriate. Helpful.
Today, I think less. I feel less. I worry less. I experience many more moments of peace strung together.
I stopped trying to figure it all out. Or rather think it all out. Or even feel it all out.
Inspiration became my guide.
No longer did I want to think my way through or out.
I wanted inspiration. Clarity.
I wanted impetus. Energy in motion.
How could I access inspiration without it becoming another forced action?
Wanna know what I learned?
Yep. That's it. That simple.
For most that's easier said than done. In a world which promotes doing and rewards the busiest doers, how do we let go?
Letting go is a return to our natural state. To being. Allowing. Unfolding.
Letting go is not a doing. It is a conscious awareness of what is. A pulling back from any one focus to a broad vantage point. Being an observer. Bearing witness.
Letting go means letting thoughts and emotions flow through us. Not clamping down on them. Not entertaining them. Not buying into them as truth.
Letting going means identifying illusion. The most common illusions are the stories our minds make up. To fill in the blanks. To make sense of the world. To help us feel safe in the world. To interpret that which we don't understand. When we buy into these self-constructed stories, we become walled off from seeing. Seeing truth.
Letting go gets easier with practice. Becomes more familiar. We experience greater recognition of when we are trapped in our thoughts, our emotions and our mind.
Letting go happens more easily with certain practices. Practices of stillness, quiet and coming back to centre. Walking. Being in Nature. Yoga. Listening to music. Petting your cat. Meditation.
Letting go isn't another goal to attain, set or strive for.
Letting go is a release. A sigh. A dropping back into being.
PS - Wanna know what I learned during my year long sabbatical? What I let go of? Why I shifted from an animal based practice to working with people? Then join me tomorrow @ 4pm EDT (Saturday, December 17th) for a Facebook Live Q&A. It's so more fun when you're there!
New to Facebook Live? It's easy. It's free. Go to my Facebook Page. If you want, like my page before the event. You'll get a notification in your newsfeed when I go live. Click on it and you're there. Or visit my page during the event and look for the live video post (look for 'red eye' icon and the word 'live'). Either way, ask your questions by commenting DIRECTLY in the 'comments' in the video post (that's the only place I can see them).